A mothers inner thoughts. (AAB CCB-446-446)

Surgery had been offered to me as a 10 yr old, but after mum spoke to a cousin of hers,who was a nurse, mum decided  to NOT put me through it - just incase.  

A mothers inner thought prior to adult offspring {me}having neuro surgery. {see comment, below.}

I watched you grow 

While praying, so

A cure, it would be found.

My heart was sore,  

I prayed some more

Each time you "fell to ground".

My eyes did weep, 

Who, would you, keep

When dad and I were gone?

And yes, it’s true,

I prayed that you

Would NOT be left alone.

But then a glim

Of hope from Him

I’ll tell you, I WAS scared

The years of pain

Had been my bane 

I’ll know not, how you fared.

The choice was yours,

YOU fought the wars

Of anguish, when it hit.

I prayed with dad

That we’d be glad

Your choice would make them quit.

I feared the worst

Would you be cursed?

You’d know not, dad nor me.

Your memory gone?

A star that shone?

We prayed the BEST, would be.

That evening came 

Would we HIM blame?

We visited to see,

And from afar, 

HE .............. GAVE............. ME ..............POWER,

Whene’er you winked at me.

But NOW I’m pleased,

My mind has eased

The right choice you DID make,

I’m glad we knew

The seizure-less you,

Before us, HE did take.

Note: Mum thought I might have had memory issues after my surgery and after winking at her from afar, she looked at my dad saying in a delighted voice "Oh Bobby, he knows us"