My SCARIEST Seizure

Seizures are NOT just falling on the floor foaming at the mouth; if only they had been.............

Was always told, when I was in

A seizure, I gained strength,

Insinuating not, I was a Hulk

I wouldn't go that length.

It could have been a fatal thing,

I shudder at the thought,

A ten year old to do this deed,

With panicked fear I'm fraught.

A seizure caught me unawares,

As they were apt to do,

I recall coming out of this

Thankfully, right on cue. 

As I came back to normal

Well, what was 'norm' to see,

The image I returned to

With dreaded fear, filled me.

The first reaction noted

Was "drop......those..........hands..........right........now"

Th'experience could've been tragic,

Returned, on time, somehow.

The next thought I recall, I had

Was "Swallow........me........up,........floor"

The consequence of what I saw

Did gut me to the core.

Don't know how long it happened

I'm trusting, not too long,

I couldn't have lived with knowing

That I had done such wrong.

And while it WAS the seizure,

I'm thinking of my dad,

Would he have blamed me for the wrong?

Made me believe I'm bad?

Would I to 'borstal' have been sent?

A threat to family be?

"He did it once, he could repeat"

"And would the next be me?"

My mother had forgotten this

When I, years aft. did share,

She asked if seizures I recalled

I mentioned this to her.

"No son", said she "I don't recall"

Had been blocked out of mind,

A "mother's love" is only full

Of memories good and kind.

So what was this, that frightful was,

Of which I have just wrote?

My mother, standing, back to door,

. . . . . . . . My hands. . . . . around. . . . . . . . her throat.